Release

One of the hardest lessons in life is letting go. 
Whether it’s guilt, anger, love, or loss. 
Letting go is never easy, 
you fight to hold on, you fight to let go.

Last year when I did this project I found myself able to let go of all the hurt and anger I felt toward others. I found that reflecting on it, writing it down, and closing that chapter really helped heal some wounds in my soul. That is why I chose to do this project again. Sometimes release can be feelings and sometimes it is something more tangible. This year I want to be able to let go of the material things that remind me that Clara’s life was real. Clara’s bedding, clothes, toys, shoes. Having had our last child it is time for me to let go of many things we bought for Clara’s birth and chose to use with the rest of our babies rather than replace. Haleigh has now outgrown all of the clothes Clara wore and is wearing the ones she never got to. So it time to give them to another family. It makes it easier to shared these clothes now that Haleigh has worn them because they are no longer “Just Clara’s”. Yet they are all we have left of Clara too. So this month I plan to pack up a few special items and release the rest. I have realized in my journey that Clara has been and always will be a part of my life and I don’t need every material thing that was hers to prove she was here.

“Some of us think holding on makes us strong but sometimes it is letting go.”