How does it feel to have a baby girl at home??

That is one of the most asked questions now that Haleigh is here.  To that I say great but deep down it is surreal, exciting, and scary.  Surreal because I didn’t expect to have another girl.  Exciting because we have pink and purple in the house again.  Scary because if something happens to Haleigh I am the one at home with her.  I will be the one to find her.  I will be the one to make that awful phone call.  I will be the one to try to save her.  It scares me to no end.  I pray everyday that we don’t have to feel the pain of SIDS again.  Each day she gets closer to the higher risk time frame the more often I find myself checking to make sure she is breathing while she sleeps.  Every morning and nap time I say many thank you’s that I have another day with her.

I can’t imagine my days without Haleigh.  She has such a beautiful smile and is so laid back.  She is such a treat to have in our home and absolutely completes our family.

There isn’t a day that goes by that we don’t appreciate the opportunity to be raising so many little blessings.   Everyday we continue to pray for many more days with all of them, for the chance to see their children, and to watch them grow old.  Life means so much more after you suffer the loss of a child.  Every day with these 5 is a gift. 🙂