Forgiveness

Forgiveness is never ending for me.  Sometimes a struggle, sometimes easy.   I found long ago that I can’t forgive others without first forgiving myself.  After Clara’s passing I found myself hanging onto a lot of things.  Things like guilt, anger, and frustration turned to resentment and bitterness.  Every time I spoke up about something that hurt me it was always turned back at me.  It seemed like it was always somehow my fault.  All I wanted to hear was “I am sorry what I said/did hurt you.  I didn’t mean for it to.”  Today I know I will never hear that.  I have learned to forgive without an apology.  For me the hardest ones to forgive are myself and the ones closest to me.  My journey has shown me I don’t need someone to acknowledge a hurt to forgive them for it.  My best strategy for forgiveness is write it down, crumple it up, toss it in the trash, say a prayer, and let it go.

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