Daily Archives: October 6, 2014

The CarlyMarie Project – Day 6

                                         Books

 

“They’ll say you’ve changed only because you’ve stopped living life their way.”

Finding me was the key to finding joy again.  Some of my most helpful readings came for these four books.  The SIDS and Infant death book helped me find peace in knowing that I wasn’t alone in my suffering.  As others shared their stories I realized I could too.  The book gave me insight on how my daycare might be feeling and that SIDS is not preventable.  It helped me to explain the loss to the older boys and what to expect as Chris grieved too.

Shortly after Clara passed I was asked to join a women’s bible study.  The reflection during that time helped me refocus and helped heal my heart a bit.  It also helped me, and continues to help me, deal with my next little guys health concerns.  My favorite verse comes from 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.”

 To that I try my best to reach out and share with others what helps me and while I do that I find comfort in the those I connect with.

#WhatHealsYourHeart
#CaptureYourGrief

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The CarlyMarie Project – Day 5

Journal

I don’t do a lot of journaling in the traditional form.  I think of way I express my thoughts and grief through things like Facebook, Twitter, and my Pink Lemoande blog.  I don’t blog often and I really think the CarlyMarie Project has allowed me time to reflect without the worry of others frowning upon my actions.  I have so much that I could blog about but I don’t add many new posts for fear of others getting upset or into trouble.  I have found those type of thoughts are best written on paper and then crumpled and thrown in the trash.  It is absolutely therapeutic to “throw away” those papers and “let go” of how I feel.

When it comes to letters to Clara, I just can’t write them.  I say a prayer and have no troubles doing that.  For myself and my kids, we find that sending a short message to Heaven on a balloon is the best thing for us.  A simple “I love you and miss you” is what I share when I can.

"Much of the time we are transfixed by all the ways we can reflect ourselves out into the world and barely find the time to reflect back deeply in our own selves."

“Much of the time we are transfixed by all the ways we can reflect ourselves out into the world and barely find the time to reflect back deeply in our own selves.”

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