Day #29: Music
There are so many songs that remind me of Clara. Each has their own reason for that reminder. I thought today I would share 4 very special songs to me.
All American Girl ~ Carrie Underwood
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m36xv75MJ4U
This song came out around the time of our wedding. I was 24wks along with Clara at that time. Both Chris and I used to sing it and dreaming about a little girl. This song also happened to play on the radio when we brought her home from the hospital. It really became our Clara song and she even had a pink onsie that said “All American Girl”. After she passed away I would change the radio station every time the song would come on. It reminded me of all the dreams for the future we had for her. We live in such a small town that chances were she would date that football star 🙂 It wasn’t until I went to a Carrie Underwood concert that I actually had to face the song again. So there I was standing in the front row crying but now I love listening to it again. Damon and Mason even mentioned the other day how big Clara’s smile used to get when we listened to it.
Puff the Magic Dragon ~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qu_rItLPTXc
A song that was Daddy’s favorite. He loved singing this to her and she seemed to always calm down when he did. She would just stare at him and listen and smile. I miss those days. This really became Clara’s song and we have found a new one for each new baby. This was also the last song we sang to her before we let her go for the last time.
Glory Baby ~ Watermark
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUZkjbYaKPA
Glory Baby was shared with me by a friend. At first I could barely make it through the song. It took a few tries but it has really grown on me. I will often share it with newly bereaved parents of both infant and pregnancy loss. This song reminds me that Clara is wrapped in loving arms until we meet again.
Held ~ Natalie Grant
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qkwIYzp8Sok
This is by far the most personal song for me and my journey. I am always thankful for the support we have received from everyone. The song hits it right on for me. From it feeling unfair, to growing in faith, to seeing the sun again, to knowing and feeling all the support around us, we will and are being held.
